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I am getting over my sadness of the end of Christmas. Santa was very good to all of us this year, my #1 “want” was granted with the gift of a video camera from my Dad and step-mom. We took it out for a spin yesterday at the park, and today I played with my new used MacBook given to me by my santa-boss (aka Mama!) and the result can be seen here.
What else is New? This year! Well almost, just two days away but I’m anxious and starting my fresh start now. . . on the list:
Doing a quick pick-up of the house every night
Eating Better, cooking more
Going on walks with my baby, and my hubby if he’s willing
There’s more but extenuating circumstances prevent those from happening quite yet, but there’s a sense of optimism in the air and all will work out for the best very soon, I feel.
I simply cannot believe that christmas is over! It completely flew by me and I feel like I missed out on so many things. My New Years resolution is to become a much more organized person so that this does not happen again…we will see. On the other hand, Christmas Day itself was very enjoyable and it was great to watch my ten year old nephew and Doiron open gifts together. Doiron still didn’t quite get the hang of it, but man did he strike gold. Everyone always says that divorce is bad for the kids, but what they don’t say is how great it is for the grand kids! Four sets of grandparents and eight sets of great grandparents really adds up. Every year I promise to do my thank you cards, so far I haven’t ( that includes wedding shower/ wedding/ baby shower and baby and now two Christmases!) I have drawers full of pretty cards and gift lists, these people deserve more thanks than I can ever offer…step one in mission organization will be writing these thank yous! Step two, finding a place for all of Doiron’s toys. Here’s a few snippets from our Christmas Day (I got a video camera last night, so stay tuned for longer, better videos! *eek*)
why do some days at work drag on but your days off fly by? doiron and i have been driving all over austin/ round rock/ georgetown trying to do some christmas shopping and being entirely unsuccessful. we did find a few things that just couldn’t be passed up at sparkle kids. i am in love with this consignment shop, it was so hard not to stockpile a few things for zehla, but it just feels like bad luck so i resist.
in other news doiron just had his one year checkup, can we talk about the size of this boys noggin and feat!? he has jumped from the 50th percentile across the board to 80th in head circumference and height. grandpapa hahn got this man some socks and shoes while he was visiting, 2/3T socks and size 6 shoes . . . here are a few pictures from our day
meaty feats/ cons n’ hat/ running errands
ps. we are going to the trail of lights tonight! so excited cus it doesn’t really feel like christmas and there’s less then a week left *tear*
i got a sweet surprise when i got home from work today. not only did my sister make a delicious dinner, but i got my first gift for supporting the birth story kickstarter campaign! i still haven’t seen the movie but I’m going on January 22, and my second gift for supporting it will be a copy of the DVD, which i’ll receive in may.
that being said…baby fever is stirring up! but hopefully the birth of a new nephew in february will suffice. bryan and i have a few goals we would like to meet before we try for our zehla doris….stable careers, our own house, etc. but i ache to be pregnant again, it was marvelous, i felt healthy and beautiful, and that’s a whole other post. i do plan on writing my birth story soon, until then here is a picture from that amazing night. here’s the inspiring Debra Day, one of four amazing midwives i was blessed to experience, weighing my brand new baby boy.
today’s news rendered me speechless. i was sitting in my stores offsite christmas booth when my step brother told me there was another shooting. my heart skipped a beat, then i had to smile for the customers. once there was a clearing i hunted for details, kindergartners. my eyes swelled with tears, then more customers and more forced smiles. i worked for the next eight hours not allowing myself to think about it, then during the last hour of my shift i could barely recite change to my customers without my voice cracking. a mother came in the booth with her two children, a boy and girl, i’m guessing around 4 and 5. she was the most tender loving mom I’ve seen in a while, hugging and caressing and kissing her children every time they were near enough, my whole body ached for my baby. when they whined because they weren’t getting presents she held them and reminded them christmas is a week away, when they wanted to sign her credit card receipt, she let them sign under her name.
these children will never doubt that their mother loves them. and neither will doiron. there will be boundaries and he will get in trouble, but i will always speak on his level and there will ALWAYS be hugs and kisses. the minute i shut my car door i whaled for all of the babies who, in the words of our president “had their innocence ripped away from them too soon” and the ones who had their lives ripped away from them too soon, and the mommies who had their babies ripped away from them too soon. not just in Connecticut but everywhere. i have never loved anyone so fiercely as i love my son and the thought of life without him leaves me numb and heartbroken. i am unfairly lucky in the fact that i don’t have to stay in this baby-less universe, and too many tonight do. all i can do is live the life i’ve been granted, and cherish every wonderful moment i have, because tomorrow i may not be this lucky. and so i leave you with this. i wanted to capture the warm greeting i receive every night in hopes that it might warm your wounded soul and help us all to focus on the beautiful parts of this world that exist. dieu vous bénisse et bonne nuit.
it happened, my little squishy baby has become a big walking, “talking” climbing boy. These past 12 months have been so amazing, every day brings something new accompanied by the most natural routine. Every morning Doiron wakes me up with a sweet little sigh, he greets me with a smile from his crib and we climb in our warm bed for some milk. I’m not ready to forgo this ritual, it’s nourishing, comforting and perfect, for both of us. If we don’t fall back asleep we go for a walk or just to the living room to play. Doiron loves anything that plays music, has buttons to push or can hold something else. I’d say his favorite toy is a toss up between the Tupperware drawer and a little piano that plays the Jackson 5. I used to watch tv and movies like nobodies business, these days nothing is more entertaining than watching baby and daddy laughing and playing together.
We had a great birthday celebration with a lot of family and friends. Grandma and Grandpa Hahn were in town to make sure Doiron was thoroughly spoiled on his first birthday, and his Great Grammie and aunt and uncle came in from Houston. It’s been bittersweet for me, as I’ve finally fully realized how busy I will be every year on his birthday…. But I am determined to make it special for him. I will do my best to make his cake every year, but making 3 dozen tamales may be a bit overkill. He will always be surrounded by people who love him and feel special on his day. Here is a little montage of the first half of Doiron’s birthday weekend…enjoy!
Deck the halls with Doiron!
I had plans of coming to you with a “Mama’s Day Off” post . . . we had a marvelous time at the Christmas Parade and tree lighting, but I’m too proud of the roll of film I just got back. I had to share it! I have a lot to learn still but thanks to an amazing Lomography shop on congress, I think I’ll be able to pick it up! All of these are untouched . . . Visionnement heureux!
Today is all about planning for a certain FIRST BIRTHDAY PARTY! Wish me luck!!!
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